Because it’s not
about that; it’s not about it being easy, or complicated; a right decision or a
deviation from what you need; it’s not even about the truth or whatever you
tell yourself to get though the cold nights. It’s all about one more minute.
One more second, and then another, and another, and another... until you reach that
sixtieth second of that exact minute. Because going one more round, one more
moment can define your potential you’re choosing to persue forward. It gives
you clarity, but not the pretty kind. It gives you the biggest pain you ever
felt, it destroys every mountain you have ever built for your own protection,
it puts the whole world on your shoulders, and it grabs each part of your ego
putting the pieces in some sort of a puzzle that can intensify your deepest
fear. And all of that in only 4 seconds. Afterwards, when it seems like you’ve
got past the clouds, the reality of life becomes unbearable. You see it, you
get that clarity that you’ve been reaching for, and it hurts. Who said that
reality is pretty? Our intelligence can define in what reality we are living
in. But, getting clarity?! Huh. We are talking about having access to the
reality of others. You can’t judge it. You can’t change it. You just need to
have the strength in you to dodge every single one of them at the right time,
in the right way, and getting the best out of it. And that... is sad; reaching
that point gives you by default a certain understanding of things; and, once
again, that is sad. So, you will get stuck in there for around 56 seconds. I’ll
give you a tip... it’s the loneliest place I can think of.
Now you see it?
Of course, you
connot get out of that; of course, you cannot unsee it, or be able to just forget
about it and move back to the clouds. Of course, you will stick to it, and
learn how to master that, how to train that clarity to stay awake 24/7. It’s
all about that minute. You understand once again what is it all about. And it’s
worth it. It’s not supposed to be easy. By the end of the day... everything is
about choosing the truth of the mess we are living in, and not someone else’s
easy way of existing.
