Iniţierea

,, Iniţierea se află în miezul oricărei existenţe umane autentice. Şi aceasta din două motive: pe de o parte, pentru că orice viaţă umană autentică presupune crize profunde, încercări, suferinţă, pierderea şi recucerirea eului propriu, << moarte şi înviere>>; pe de altă parte, indiferent de gradul de împliniri la care a ajuns, la un moment dat orice om îşi vede viaţa ca pe un eşec. În astfel de momente de criză totală, numai o singură speranţă pare să ofere o soluţie: aceea de a-şi lua viaţa de la capăt. Dacă putem spune că iniţierea constituie o dimensiune specifică a existenţei umane este înainte de toate pentru că numai iniţierea conferă morţii o funcţie pozitivă: aceea de a pregăti noua naştere sporotială, accesul la un mod de a fi nesupus acţiunilor devastatoare ale Timpului. "
- Mircea Eliade

For love's sake, don't pretend

I could wipe the tears from your eyes, but never could I wipe tears coming from the crux of your soul. I could give you words from my soul though... Listen, my love, and listen close. Agony is there, that loneliness you feel when you see him is more then real and the sadness that perpetually lurks within you, exists too. They must have told you that these are bad and how you must wear masks and pretend to keep them off. But, but, but...
You do realize they are as much you as is the feeling of bliss and love? Hear their voice. Listen to them. It may hurt for a while, but for love's sake, don't pretend. While treading on this life's path, somehow you will realize that each thing you feel; you feel for a reason.
She was always shunned away for feeling way too much. Indeed, she did make everything too hard for herself by taking every damn thing on her bones, But what can she do? You can't blame the sea for creating waves, nor the moon for reflecting light, or the stars for shining bright among the darkness of night. She, indeed, believed that we are supposed to feel each and every little thing and for her, that was the only way to really live.
- HD

Psyche si Eros ( psihicul si iubirea )

,, A fost odata fiica unui rege, o furmusete admirata de toti, dar pe care nu indraznea nimeni sa o ceara in casatorie. Disperat regele i-a cerut ajutorul zeului Apollo. Acesta i-a spus ca Psyche trebuia lasata singura, imbracata in straie cernite pe varful unui munte. Inainte de revarsatul zorilor, un srape va veni sa se insoare cu ea. Regele i-a dat ascultare. Psyche a asteptat toata noaptea, murind de frica si frig, venirea sotului ei. Pana la urma a adormit. Cand s-a trezit, s-a pomenit intr-un palat frumos, incununata ca regina. In fiecare noapte sotul ei venea la ea si faceau dragoste. El i-a pus o singura conditie: sa aiba incredere deplina in el si sa nu incerce sa-i vada chipul niciodata. Psyche a trait fericita mult timp. Avea o viata indestulata si era indragostita de barbatul care venea la ea naopte de noapte. Totusi, din cand in cand, ii era teama sa nu fie maritata cu un monstru. Intr-o dimineata, cand sotul ei dormea, a aprins un opait. Atunci l-a vazut pe Eros, un barbat de o nesemuita frumusete, culcat langa ea. Lumina l-a trezit. Vazand ca femeia pe care o iubea nu a fost in stare sa-i implineasca singura dorinta, Eros a disparut. Ca sa-i recastige dragostea, Psyche s-a supus unor munci pe care i le-a impus Afrodita, mama lui Eros. Nu-i nevoie sa spun ca soacra invidia frumusetea nurorii si a facut tot ce-i statea in putinta ca sa impiedice impacarea celor doi soti. Pe cand indeplinea aceste munci, Psyche a deschis o cutie si a cazut intr-un somn adanc. Si Eros era indragostit si s-a cait ca nu fusese mai ingaduitor. A reusit sa intre in palat sa o trezeasca cu varful sagetii.
- Era sa pieri din cauza curiozitatii tale, a spus el. Cautai siguranta in cunoastere si ai distrus legatura noastra.
Dar in iubire nimic nu e distrus pentru totdeauna. Incredintati de aceasta, cei doi au mers la Zeus implorandu-l sa le faca uniunea indestructibila. Zeus s-a indurat de cei doi indragostiti si s-a folosit de argumente si de amenintari pana a reusit s-o imbuneze pe Afrodita.
Din ziua aceea Psyche ( partea din noi inconstienta, totusi logica ) si Eros ( iubirea ) au ramas impreuna pentru totdeauna.''
- Adulterul, de Paulo Coelho

Time for me to stand in my truth

     What else do you need? What service can I rander for you today? Am I here to stroke you ego? Am I your cheerleader? Am I here to wipe your tears? Am I your nanny? Am I here to fight the bullies? Maybe I am here to make you feel good... Maybe I'm your dealer, maybe I'm here to make you feel hot and manly and ready... so you can forget at least for a second about your life. Is that what I am?
     What else am I supposed to be? I lie in bed every night, and I play our relationship over and over in my head, like a movie. We meet, we fall in love, we can't stop ourselves, we're meant to be, I give up everything inside me and then it stops. The movie just stops. I don't know how it ends.

     I have to take care of myself. I can't spend all my time worrying about you. Everyone's doing this... it's about you, what you want, what you need. It has to be about what I want, what I need too.

     It's me. Nothing would've happened... None of it would be happening if it weren't for me. The only common denominator is me. I'm in the center, I'm the eye of the storm. This is me doing what I do best. I'm handling this, I'm fixing this. I have been over every option, I have looked at it from every angle, and I have hoped and preyed that I was wrong. I have tried to pretend that I didn't know what the answer is, but I do. So, now it's time for me to stand in my truth. It's me. I'm the thing that needs to be fixed, I'm the thing that needs to be handled. I'm the scandal.

-(c): Scandal

Who are you when no one's watching?

And nobody cares if your heart is aching, nobody cares if you want no more, nobody wants to know you cried the night before. Vaster your dreams and your hopes into it, everything you used to know it's gone and you're slipping into your own... trying not to lose yourself.

Time to put your best face on, smiling like there's nothing wrong, though deep down you feel alone. Nobody sees who you are inside, nobody knows you are so much more, nobody needs to know you're tired of putting a show.

There are so many things that I'm afraid to say, I might be afraid of loving you and most of all I'm afraid to go somewhere, anywhere but here... But I am sure about one thing... It's gonna hurt, because it matters.

A blessing and a curse

It happens like this. One day you meet someone and for some inexplicable reason, you feel more connected to this stranger than anyone else - closer to them that your closest family. Perhaps this person carries within them an angel - one send to you for some higher purpose to teach you an important lesson or to keep you safe during a perilous time. What you must do is trust in them - even if they come hand in hand with pain and suffering - the reason for their presence will become clear in due time.

Thought here is a word of warning - you may grow to love this person, but remember they are not yours to keep. Their purpose isn't to save you, but to show you how to save yourself.

It's so dark now, I can't see any light around me. That's because the light is coming from you. You can't see it, but everyone else can.

Pana uiti cine esti

Si poate asta e, in fond, iubirea... Sa nu renunti atunci cand lucrurile devin grele. Sa te agati cu tot ce ai de idea ca tu contezi in viata lui si ca existenta ta face o diferenta.

Nimic din ce merita nu vine usor, dar aici e esenta. Sa stai drept, cand toti, inclusiv el incearca sa te aduca in genunchi. Faci toate astea pentru ca merita, pentru ca iubirea, ca sa cunoasca fericirea, trebuie sa treaca prin sacrificii.Cu cat sacrifici in iubire, cu atat devine mai profunda, pentru ca se apropie mai mult de sinele tau si al lui... de sinele vostru.

,,Nu te multumii cu o relatie. Meriti o iubire.''

Nimic nu te bantuie mai rau decat lucrurile pe care nu le spui. Cum era... sa regreti ce ai facut e mai bine decat sa regreti ce n-ai facut?!O sa inteleaga ca nu se va repara pe el prin a-i rani pe ceilalti?

Da... intrebarile sunt raspunsuri deghizate. Cand dai peste o intrebare adevarata, raspunsul il gasesti tot acolo...