What else do you need? What service can I rander for you today? Am I here to stroke you ego? Am I your cheerleader? Am I here to wipe your tears? Am I your nanny? Am I here to fight the bullies? Maybe I am here to make you feel good... Maybe I'm your dealer, maybe I'm here to make you feel hot and manly and ready... so you can forget at least for a second about your life. Is that what I am?
What else am I supposed to be? I lie in bed every night, and I play our relationship over and over in my head, like a movie. We meet, we fall in love, we can't stop ourselves, we're meant to be, I give up everything inside me and then it stops. The movie just stops. I don't know how it ends.
I have to take care of myself. I can't spend all my time worrying about you. Everyone's doing this... it's about you, what you want, what you need. It has to be about what I want, what I need too.
It's me. Nothing would've happened... None of it would be happening if it weren't for me. The only common denominator is me. I'm in the center, I'm the eye of the storm. This is me doing what I do best. I'm handling this, I'm fixing this. I have been over every option, I have looked at it from every angle, and I have hoped and preyed that I was wrong. I have tried to pretend that I didn't know what the answer is, but I do. So, now it's time for me to stand in my truth. It's me. I'm the thing that needs to be fixed, I'm the thing that needs to be handled. I'm the scandal.
-(c): Scandal
